I received a letter today that got me thinking about perception.
Because of this letter, which was hard to read, but important to receive, I realized that I need to make a change. I'd like to change the focus of my blog. To those of you that have been following for the last three years, I'm not abandoning my goal. I am skiing toward becoming a viable candidate for the 2012 tryout. But to that end, I'd like to turn the focus of the blog to the same focus that I've gone to personally over the last season, that of the process as opposed to the goal.
I have always felt for me that the whole thing was about the process, but I realize today that there is still some perception that requires me to listen. I feel humble and grateful in my heart, but I'm not sure that translates clearly into my blog.
I considered whether I should stop writing my blog, and I don't think that's fair to the people that enjoy reading it and have been so kindly on my journey with me, through all the ups and downs. But I do think that I need to be open to the fact that living my life out-loud is frustrating and offensive to some people. And for that, I'm really sorry.
The goal remains, and I'm grateful for it, it helps me remember why to work hard, but the point of it all is, and always has been, the journey. I guess my job here is to work hard, for myself and for my readers, on becoming. The blog for me has become a bit of a challenge, in public, to live with integrity and to be honest when I stumble, and brave enough to grow. I'm glad I got this letter. I hope I can rise to the challenge of being a person that is more clear in intention, and is more humble.
So to that end, Skiing in the Shower 2.0 is going to focus on my journey (the blog is about my experience in the skiing world, so I can't not write about it from my own perspective) what I'm learning and how it makes sense to me, how I'm learning to apply it, with thanks to those who take the time to teach me. I'll still write about my life, my love, my family, the journey isn't just about skiing, its about all of us that are on the journey together.
I want to say thank you to the person who took the time to time to share these thoughts so honestly. And to the folks today that helped me puzzle through what it meant and how I can grow.