So the word "Patience" has been knocked around a lot for me, the word "Aequinemitas" has become a personal mantra, it's written on my skis, its going to be tattooed on my arm, I say it over and over...
Its ufnny because lots of times, I don't feel like I'm being IMpatient. I feel very excited about stuff, and spend a lot of time saying, "Wait, slow down, think it through..." I guess the thing that is a bit scary is that this is me slowing down and thinking through stuff and being patient...
Obviously I still have some practice and a long way to go before I'm good at this. I'm lucky to have a bunch of good friends who don't mind telling me when I'm blissfully unaware that I've overstepped again... but its a lesson I must learn pronto, before I do some damage that can't be undone.
I really don't want to get a reputation as a loose cannon. I don't mind being percieved as excited and passionate and energetic, but lets reign it in so its not unpredictable and etc.
Its been a very interesting journey to this point so far, a lot of self discovery in the last ten or twelve years, and its been intensifying for sure in the last three, as I realize that I love this industry, I love my job, and this is what I want to do and be forever. Its the first time I haven't wondered, well, if I make this choice, what about all the things I am not choosing? What if one of those was meant to be my path? I don't feel like I'm giving up anything by choosing to be a ski instructor. I feel like I'm following my passion, which is amazing.
BUT, even though this is me tamed down, I'm going to try to make sure that I install a new filter that asks me to triple check all sources before I jump on an action.
Lesson learned, lets make it permanent, like its an essential movement pattern in skiing.